Maybe there was something about sending an update e-mail to our adoption consultant at the agency combined with getting an adoption joke e-mail from our social worker combined with reading timelines on other adoption blogs, but it occurred to me suddenly, with force, that our life is truly in the process of changing. Even those who waited longest for their referral didn’t wait that long (though I’m sure it felt that long to them). Oh, I know we’ve been working on our paperwork forever, and I’ve been buying and scavenging and making over stuff for the baby for just as long, but it never seems quite real. It seems like a lot of lists and a lot of papers that may or may not be done properly and checks to be written and plans to be made for someday or something or…I don’t even know. Everything has seemed so matter of fact up to now. I need this document done in this way with these stamps and signatures and such on it and that’s that. I don’t know why, really, it hit me tonight, but suddenly, looking at the timelines and the photos of actual children that are with their families because of the same process we are going through, it seemed real. And I know that I don’t have any new news for your or anything to add that I haven’t said before, but I want to mark this moment before it’s gone.
What we’re doing, this thing with all the papers and the confusion and the red folder that is the one non-living thing we’ll grab should there be an emergency, will result in a baby who will live at our house.
And DUDE. WHOA. That’s gonna be awesome.